thanks for what

Danny says "thanks for life".  I should honor that and I am trying.  It's beautiful up here in NC. 


I should be doing a lot of things in my head but my heart won't let me.  I should be making sure Tony, Amber, Michael, Zak, Sherrell, Donnie, Carol, Julie and others are doing ok.  But it hurts too much to talk about.  So I'm just pushing time by and ignoring reality as much as I can.  


Guess I'll be stuck in the middle of this desert for awhile.  Nothing has changed yet.  One day maybe it will. 


I so did not want Mary to take Danny.  I begged her not to.  But I can't be mad at her.  She was only following her heart too.