Today is nothingness. I am lost. I am sad. No tears. If they start to leak out, I stop them. I am not ready for resignation yet. Danny is still around. I can feel him. I can see him when I close my eyes walking through the house to the kitchen.
So, I will continue to escape into TV.
Mary is waiting for him. Neither made it to 30.
I am defeated. I don't know how long I will remain this way. Danny says to enjoy life and I am trying but not doing a very good job.