"Fate will put in front of us the very thing that we are running away from." I heard that in a TV show tonight.
I have been thinking about those 5 minutes I stood in front of that man and poured out my heart. I am still amazed that I didn't burst into a blubbering idiot. I have never read that statement where I actually finished it without crying. I was scared that my voice would crack or I would talk in a high squeaky voice. But these things did not happen. I stood tall and firm. I meant every word I said and I wanted to be very clear to him exactly how I felt. I was someone I have never been before.
I found strength I didn't know existed. I am NOT who I was before. I was telling the world what every parent feels when they've lost a child needlessly by the hands of irresponsibility. And I wanted the world to hear my words clearly. But, more importantly, I wanted him to understand how life has changed for me and my family. After all, he's a parent. How would he feel if his child had been the victim?
I believe Kerry and Julie found the same strength. And Danny held us together.
I can be anything, do anything, go through anything now, except this again.