Why do I always have to be the responsible one. Why can’t I just go away and not have to worry about anything. Just sit in the sun with my eyes closed so I don’t have to know about anything that’s going on around me. I want to just veg out and exist without any attachments. Like the Paul Simon song says “I am a rock, I am an island”. If nobody touches me I won’t get hurt.
My friend is leaving
. She is getting away from everything, starting new. She’s tired of the feelings that come with remembering Mary and what happened to her. I don’t blame her. I do it in a minute if it were possible. Just for a little while. Just to regain some strength, some will, some want to keep going. To want to do things is a lot different than to have to do things. I want someone to take care of me for awhile. I used to tell Mary that every so often. She said she would and I knew that was true. Atlanta
I just need a refresher course in living.
I really need to get back to writing every day. It does help release the tension.